Dear God, it's Come to This

Yeah that's right bitches, I'm quoting Madonna lyrics rather than writing out my own version of the depressing end of yet another "relationship." The least self-pitying but simultaneously candid version (without spilling all my private crap out to the world at large) that I can manage: We were in love, it was awesome and amazing, I thought we'd get married (...in two years or so, don't worry, I wasn't THAT crazy), I trusted him and loved him more than anybody I've ever known, including the 5-year Cincinnati Boy. And then it was over for reasons far beyond my control. The only positive thing is that the transformation from completely devastated to sometimes devastated/sometimes ok hasn't been as long and overwhelmingly hopeless as it's been in the past. So, yay for improved mental health?

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Just one of those things
When everything goes incredible
And all is beautiful (Can't get my head around, I need to think about it)
And one of those things
That used to get you down
Now have no effect at all
Cause life is beautiful (Can't get my head around it, I need to think about it)
Remembering the very first time
You caught that someone special's eye
And all of your cares dropped
And all of the world just stopped (I hope)
I want to go back to then
Got to figure out how, got to remember when I felt it, it thrilled me
I want it, to fill me
Just one of those things
When everything goes incredible
And all is beautiful (Can't get my head around, I need to think about it)
And one of those things
That used to get you down
Now have no effect at all
Cause life is beautiful (Can't get my head around it, I need to think about it)
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Coming...okay, I was going to write SOON, but let's be realistic...EVENTUALLY: post-surgery reflections and experiences!